Feeling.....

I'm not really sure why but as of today I'm going to take a break from youth. Just a short one, I just feel like even though we learn about God, I need to learn about him myself. All this information is being pushed at me and I think it would be better if I did it at my own pace, made some decisions and when I'm ready I'll come back. Sunday's still a go though.

I didn't know Ben was leaving for Disney Land. Not till today, no idea when he left or anything. I felt so bad. I know with them I'll always be their little sister and stuff but I feel like to earn that title I need to be there. I feel like I've lost my way with those guys, feels more distant.

-I think I've been feeling too much lately